So I have always been a person to have a very vivid imagination from the time I was little and I hope that my son is blessed with that too. I think it has allowed me to be able to dream and cope a little better when things have gotten rough. My imagination has always been at it best when I was reading or watching a movie that tested the limits of reality in some way or another.
Today I found myself right back in the place in my mind where I wish what it would be like to be someone or something else. Not for fear of the reality of my own life but as an escape from my reality, a peaceful outlet. As weird as it seemed reading eclipse has made me want to become a werewolve. Being able to be connected yet apart from the world outside, having the freedom to roam and run to you can't run anymore. Being a protector of the ones you l0ve with out really interfering in their lives, a quiet guardian. Right now that's what I wish I could do for someone.
I wish I could be their protector and give theme evrything they need to make the happy right now, make everyone that is bothering or complicating their life fearful that there is just something protecting them to the point where they would risk life and limb to make sure they survive. i would be their warmth n a place for them to rest their head as comfortable a body pillow or warm blanket. Knowing that I cannot do that especially from my hospital make me feel human and helpless and I don't enjoy this feeling. I would give anything for my imagination to actually run wild and come alive at these times in my life. But I have to except the fact that its just my unconscious, a simple escape for a momentary second from the real grown up world, where your imagination, wishing, and dreaming sometimes become obsolete and useless.
I can only dream!!
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